Monday, October 09, 2006

I think I am a good mother, I really do. But sometimes my kids drive me nuts! It is like what I say goes in one ear and out the other. Sometimes I think that maybe I just need to chill. They are just kids right? I should give them a break. Then I look at other peoples kids and how they act out, and have no respect and think...Nope, not gonna happen with my kids. Maybe I then pull the reins a little tighter. They say "pick your battles". Who is "they"? I want to see how their kids turned out.

Joshua has 2 more weeks of football. It will be bittersweet when it is over. He is at practice Mon-Thurs til 5:30. I have to pick him up. We have had to travel to his out of town games and we don't have the money for gas. But, then I love watching him play.

Friday, September 29, 2006

So the family is at the Football game except for Tyleigh and I. We're home watching "Ugly Betty".

I have been crying all day. Jared has been being a total jerk all week. Nothing new. He treats me like he hates me all the time anyhow.
I was going to type a novel, but I can't go there more tears left.

Anyways so this elk yielded 442 pounds of meat. It is the biggest elk of the year (so far..rifle season hasn't started yet). So this elk meat, (which I am sure I am going to hate BTW )costs...$265.20 to butcher. So after I pay all the bills, the tithing and this butcher bill...I have 70 bucks left to last the 6 of us 2 weeks. We have NO groceries in the house. Not even Milk. But we do have 442 pounds of elk meat. Yuck So I cried some more about that. Not sure how I am going to feed the family, put gas in the vehicles and feed Jared on the road on 70 bucks. And what I don't get is this: We are doing what we should. We are going to church. We are paying out tithing. We are worthy to hold recommends...and what do we get? Flat ass broke, that's what. I am bitter right now..wondering if I should take the tithing money and get groceries. It's not like I WANT to go to the temple right now anyhow. Grouch Day 1

So there is one bit of good news for the day though. I ate the elk steaks that Jared made for dinner, and I liked it. It tasted just like beef. And I am very picky about meat. It wasn't gross at all, and I was so ready to spit it out and tell him that his stupid hunting escapades was a complete waste of time and money...and I liked it. So I guess at least with the 70 bucks I have, I won't have to use a dime of it on beef. Woo-hoo. Rolling Eyes So we borrowed this big ancient freezer from Jared's mother. It is huge at the top wont close all the way it is so full of meat.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Well some rather cool stuff has happened since I wrote last.
One being that Jared shot a HUGE Bull Elk with his bow. He is so proud!
Dallin was with him, and so were Randy and Morgan.

Last night was Joshua's 3rd Football game. He played a couple minutes of the 1st quarter and most of the 2nd quarter. After half time he never came out of the game. He played Offense and Defense, and did a great job. This is really boosting his self esteem. His dad is so proud of him, which I am do glad of...most things they do not see eye to eye on, so this is great for them.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Just a little bit of news before I go to bed.
Football here is huge. Small town and everyone shows up to watch the game. It is actually pretty cool. There are men in their Eighties who used to play on the field watching and rooting.
So most of the kids here have played Football since 5th grade. Joshua just started 3 weeks ago. He doesn't get to play much because of his lack of experience. So tonight, his second game ever...he SACKED THE QUARTERBACK! I was so proud! Football 2 Vikings

Monday, September 11, 2006

I can't believe it has been 5 years since the horrific attacks on our country.

I remember that morning. I had gotten up and got Joshua up for school. I am laying in bed watching the local news when they break into "The Today Show" I believe. It is 6:46 am. I they are saying that a plane had hit the World Trade Center. Of course the first thing of think of is terrorism. But then I start thinking, "well maybe someone wanted to commit suicide, or they weren't paying attention". That theory of course went out the window as I watched live, the second plane hit the other tower some 17 minutes later.

When the Pentagon was hit, I was just waiting for more and more places to be shown. Luckily some heroes saved other targets from being hit.

I sat in horror the rest of the week in front of the TV switching back and forth between CNN and CNBC. I slept with CNN on the TV all night, a bad habit I continue to this day.

I remember how patriotic everyone became. It was such a wonderful feeling of unity. I wish that feeling was still here today, because now it seems the country is divided with different opinions about what should have happened, or what we should be doing. I am glad the decision isn't mine to make.

WTC Candle WTC Ribbon WTC Never Forget 911 Flag WTC Heart WTC Eagle WTC Ribbon White House Twin Towers 1

My favorite memorial site:
Take a peek, it takes a while to load if you have dial up, but it is worth it.
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Saturday, September 09, 2006

So Joshua won his first ever Football game. He was really excited. Krista came over to the game with the 3 oldest kids. It was good to see them again.

We have been doing alot of hanging out with Randy and LaRene. It is odd that we find a couple to hang out with that we actually like both the husband and wife, and can tolerate the kids as well. Jared and Randy have been doing alot of hunting lately. Jared got a deer with his bow on the opening day of the season.

They are off hunting tonight too. Trying to get an Elk.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

I can't believe the kids are getting so dang big. Especially Joshua. This picture if from their first day of school. Joshua started middle school, Dallin started 2nd grade, Baylee is in Kindergarten. Tyleigh keeps me "entertained" while they are gone.

Notice Joshua's height compared to 6'1 Jared. He is as tall as I am now. Scary. Today is his first football game. (Or should I say Fooos-ball...LOL).He is really excited, but I think maybe Jared is even more excited. Football is a big deal here...especially High School Football. It looks like a ghost town around here on Friday nights....EVERYONE is at the high school for the football game. It is pretty cool actually. Go Vikings! Vikings

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

My Song List Aug 15th 2006

4 Non Blondes - What's Up.mp3
Ace of Base - Don't Turn Around.mp3
A-Ha - Take On Me.mp3
Air Supply - All Out Of Love.mp3
Air Supply - Even The Nights Are Better.mp3
Alabama - Angels Among Us.mp3
Alanis Morrisette - Ironic.mp3
Alanis Morrisette - Thank You.mp3
Alanis Morrisette - That I Would Be Good (MTV Unplugged Version).mp3
Alicia Bridge - I love the night life.mp3
Andy Williams - The Impossible Dream.wma
Anne Murray - Broken Hearted Me.mp3
Anne Murray - I Just Fall In Love Again.mp3
Anything Box - Living in oblivion.mp3
Aretha Franklin - It's Raining Men.mp3
Arlo Guthrie - City of New Orleans.MP3
Asia - Heat of the Moment.mp3
Bachman Turner Overdrive (BTO) - You Aint Seen Nothing Yet.mp3
Baltimora - Tarzan Boy.mp3
Bananarama - Cruel Summer.mp3
Bangles - Walk Like An Egyptian.mp3
Barry Manilow - Looks Like We Made It.mp3
Barry Manilow - Mandy.mp3
Barry Manilow - Ready To Take A Chance Again.mp3
Barry Manilow - Somewhere Down The Road.mp3
Billy Joel - And So It Goes.mp3
Billy Joel - For The Longest Time.mp3
Billy Joel - Goodnight Saigon.mp3
Billy Joel - It's Still Rock 'n' Roll To Me.mp3
Billy Joel - Piano Man.mp3
Billy Joel - Shes Always A Woman To Me.mp3
Billy Joel - She's Got A Way.mp3
Billy Joel - Tell Her About It.mp3
Billy Joel - Uptown Girl.mp3
Billy Joel - We Didn't Start the Fire.mp3
Billy Squire - Rock Me Tonight.mp3
Billy Squire - The Stroke.mp3
Bob Carlisle - Butterfly Kisses.mp3
Bob Rivers - Walkin' Around In Women's Underwear.mp3
Bobby Goldsboro - Honey.mp3
Bon Jovi - Bed of Roses.mp3
Bon Jovi - Who Says You Can't Go Home (Duet With Jennifer Nettles ).mp3
Bon Jovi - Blaze Of Glory.mp3
Bon Jovi - Livin' On A Prayer.mp3
Bonnie Tyler - Heartache.asf
Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse Of The Heart.mp3
Bonnie Tyler- I Need A Hero.mp3
Bowling For Soup - 1985.mp3
Bowling For Soup - Almost.mp3
Boys Dont Cry - I Wanna Be A Cowboy.mp3
Bryan Adams - Straight From The Heart.mp3
Buddy Jewell - Sweet Southern Comfort.mp3
Carl Douglas - Kung Fu Fighting.mp3
Carrie Underwood - Jesus Take the Wheel.mp3
Chaka Khan - I Feel For You.mp3
Charlie Daniels Band - The Devil Went Down To Georgia.mp3
Cheap Trick - The Flame.mp3
Chris Isaak - Wicked Game.mp3
Coldplay - The Scientist.mp3
Color Me Badd - I Wanna Sex you Up.mp3
Cutting Crew - I Just Died In Your Arms Tonight.mp3
Cyndi Lauper - Girl Just Wanna Have Fun.mp3
D4L - Shake That Laffy Taffy.mp3
Damien Rice - The blowers daughter.mp3
Danny Wilson - Mary's Prayer.mp3
Depeche Mode - Personal Jesus.mp3
Depeche Mode - Somebody.mp3
Devo - Whip it.mp3
Dexy's Midnight Runners - Come On Eileen.mp3
Diamond Rio - One More Day With You.mp3
Dino - Summer Girls.mp3
Dionne Warwick - I'll Never Love This Way Again.mp3
Dionne Warwick - Walk On By.mp3
Divinyls - I Touch Myself.mp3
Dixie Chicks - Ready To Run.mp3
Dixie Chicks - Sin Wagon.mp3
Dixie Chicks - Goodbye Earl.mp3
dixie chicks - Long Time Gone.mp3
Dixie Chicks - Traveling Soldiers.mp3
Dixie Chicks - Wide Open Spaces.mp3
Dixie Chicks - Without You.mp3
Dixie Chicks - You Were Mine.mp3
Donna Summers - She Works Hard For The Money.mp3
Donna Summers - This Time I Know It's For Real1.mp3
Dr. Demento - The Curly Shuffle.mp3
Duran Duran - The Reflex.mp3
Duran Duran - Wild Boys.mp3
Eddie Arnold- Cattle Call.mp3
Eddie Grant - Electric Avenue.mp3
ELO - Electric Light Orchestra - Evil Woman.mp3
ELO - Livin' Thing.mp3
Elton John - I'm Still Standing.mp3
Elton John - Sad Songs (Say So Much).mp3
Elton John - The Last Song.mp3
Elton John- I Don't Wanna Go On With You Like That.mp3
Enya - Only Time.mp3
Erasure - A Little Respect.mp3
Europe - Carrie.mp3
Europe - Final countdown.mp3
Evanescence - My Immortal.mp3
Extreme - More Than Words.mp3
Firehouse - Love Of A Lifetime.mp3
Five For Fighting - 100 Years.mp3
Five For Fighting - Superman.mp3
Foreigner - I Wanna Know What Love Is.mp3
Frankie Goes To Hollywood - Relax.mp3
Garth Brooks - Papa Loved Mama.mp3
Garth Brooks - The Dance.mp3
Garth Brooks - The Thunder Rolls (Long Version).mp3
Garth Brooks - The Thunder Rolls.mp3
Garth Brooks - To Make You Feel My Love.mp3
Garth Brooks - Two Of A Kind, Workin' On A Full House.mp3
Garth Brooks - Unanswered Prayers.mp3
George Lamond - Bad Of The Heart.mp3
George Lamond - Without You.mp3
George Strait- I Get Carried Away.mp3
Gino Vannelli - Living Inside Myself.mp3
Glenn Campbell - By Time I get to Phoenix.mp3
Glenn Medeiros - Nothings Gonna Change My Love For You.mp3
Good Charlotte - Girls and Boys.MP3
Goody Two Shoes - Adam And The Ants.mp3
Green Day - Boulevard Of Broken Dreams (I walk alone).mp3
Green Day - Closing Time.mp3
Green Day - Holiday.mp3
Green Day - I Fought The Law.mp3
Green Day - Time Of Your Life.mp3
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends.mp3
Green Day - When I Come Around.mp3
Greg Kihn Band - The Breakup Song(They Don't Write 'Em).mp3
Guns and Roses - Paradise City.mp3
Hall and Oates - Your Kiss Is On My List.mp3
Hampton the Hampster - Hamster Dance Song.mp3
Harry Nilsson - Without you.wma
Heart - All I Want To Do Is Make Love To You.mp3
Heart - Alone.mp3
Hinder - Lips Of An Angel.mp3
Hoobastank - The Reason.mp3
Howard Jones - No One Is To Blame.mp3
Huey Lewis and the News - Heart of Rock n' Roll.mp3
Huey Lewis and the News - The Power of Love.mp3
Human League - Don't You Want Me.mp3
Human League - Human.mp3
Information Society - Think.mp3
Information Society - Walking Away.mp3
Information Society - Whats On Your Mind (Pure Energy Mix).mp3
J Geils Band - Centerfold.mp3
J. Geils Band - Freeze-Frame.mp3
Jermaine Stewart - We don't have to take our clothes off.mp3
JJ Fad - Supersonic.MP3
Joan Jett - I love Rock and Roll.MP3
Jock Jams - Pump Up the Jam.mp3
John Berry - What's In It For Me.mp3
John Berry - Your Love Amazes Me.mp3
John Berry - Change my mind.mp3
John Berry - If I Had Any Pride Left at All.mp3
John Berry - Kiss Me In The Car.mp3
John Berry - Love Led Us Here.mp3
John Berry - She's Taking A Shine.mp3
John Berry - You And Only You.mp3
John Denver - Rocky Mountain High.mp3
John Denver - Rocky Top Tennessee.mp3
John Denver - Take Me Home, Country Roads.mp3
John Michael Montgomery - The Little Girl.mp3
John Parr - St. Elmo's Fire (Man In Motion).mp3
Johnny Cash - Ring Of Fire.MP3
Johnny Horton - Battle of 1814.mp3
Johnny Horton - Old Dan Tucker.mp3
Johnny Horton - Sink the Bismarck.mp3
Johnny Horton - The Ballad of Davy Crockett.mp3
Johnny Horton The Battle Of New Orleans.mp3
Jon Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You.mp3
Josh Groban - You Raise Me Up.mp3
Journey - Faithfully.mp3
Journey - Separate Ways (Worlds Apart).mp3
Juice Newton - Angel of the Morning.mp3
Juice Newton - Queen Of Hearts.mp3
Keane - Somewhere Only We Know.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - The Trouble With Love Is.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Addicted.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Because of You.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Break Away.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Gone.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - It's Raining Men (American Idol).mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Miss Independant.mp3
Kelly Clarkson - Since You've Been Gone.mp3
Kenny Chesney - There Goes My Life.mp3
Kim Carnes - Betty Davis Eyes.mp3
Kim Wilde - Kids in America.mp3
Kool And The Gang - Celebration.mp3
Kool and the gang - Fresh( Long version).mp3
Kool and the Gang - Joanna.mp3
Laura Branigan - Gloria.mp3
Laura Branigan - Self Control.mp3
Leaving on a Jet Plane - John Denver.mp3
Lightning Seeds - Pure.mp3
Lipps, Inc. - Funkytown.mp3
Lisa Lisa And The Cult Jam - All Cried Out.mp3
Lonestar - I'm already there.mp3
Los Del Rio - Macarena.mp3
Lou Bega - Mambo No. 5.mp3
Love will lead you back -Taylor Dayne.wma
Luther Vandross - A House Is Not A Home.mp3
M - Pop Muzik.mp3
Madness - Our House.mp3
Mark McGuinn - Mrs. Steven Rudy.mp3
Matt Monroe - Born Free.mp3
Men At Work - Land Down Under.mp3
Men At Work - Who Can It Be Now.mp3
Men Without Hats -- The Safety Dance (extended version).mp3
Merle Haggard & Willie Nelson - Pancho And Lefty.mp3
Michael Jackson - Beat It.mp3
Michael Jackson - Thriller.mp3
Micheal Jackson - Billy Jean.mp3
Midnight Oil - Beds Are Burning.mp3
Milli Vanilli - Blame It on the Rain.Mp3
Milli Vanilli - Girl I'm Gonna Miss You.mp3
Milli Vanilli - Girl You Know Its True.mp3
Montell Jordan- This Is How We Do It.mp3
Muppets - Kermit the Frog - Rainbow Connection.mp3
Murray Head - One Night In Bankok.mp3
New Kids On The Block - Didn't I Blow Your Mind.mp3
New Kids on the Block - I'll Be Loving You Forever.mp3
New Kids On The Block - Please Don't Go Girl.mp3
New Kids on the Block - Popsicle.mp3
New Kids On The Block - Step By Step.mp3
Nickelback - How You Remind Me.mp3
Night Ranger - Sister Christian.MP3
Oak Ridge Boys - Elvira.mp3
Oingo-Boingo DeadMansParty.mp3
Oleta Adams-Get Here.mp3
OMD - Enola Gay.mp3
OMD - Joan Of Arc (Maid Of Orleans).mp3
OMD - Secrets.mp3
Pat Benetar - Invincible.mp3
Pat Benetar - We Belong.mp3
Patti Labelle - New Attitude.mp3
Paul Davis- I Go Crazy.mp3
Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder - Ebony And Ivory.mp3
Pet Shop Boys - West End Girls.mp3
Pete Yorn - Just Another.mp3
Peter Gabriel - In Your Eyes.mp3
Phil Collins - In The Air Tonight.mp3
Pointer Sisters - Jump (For My Love).mp3
Poison - Every Rose Has It's Thorn.mp3
police - every breath you take.mp3
Pseudo Echo - Funky Town (Dance Remix).mp3
Puddle Of Mudd - She F...... Hates Me.mp3
Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody.mp3
Reba McEntire - Somebody.mp3
REM- Stand.mp3
REO Speedwagon - Take It On The Run.mp3
Rick Astley - Never gonna give you up.mp3
Rick Astley - Together Forever.mp3
Rick James - Superfreak.mp3
Rick Springfield - Jessie's Girl.mp3
Right Said Fred- I'm Too Sexy.mp3
Rihanna - Unfaithful.mp3
Rockwell - Somebody's Watching Me.mp3
Salt 'n' Pepa - Push It.mp3
Scandal - The Warrior.mp3
Seasons in The Sun.mp3
Shania Twain - Im Gonna Getcha.mp3
Shannon - Let The Music Play.mp3
Sheena Easton - Almost Over You.mp3
Sheena Easton - My Baby Takes The Morning Train.mp3
Sheriff - When I'm With You.mp3
Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock - Picture.mp3
Simple Minds - Don't You [Forget About Me].mp3
Sinead O'Connor - Nothing Compares To You.mp3
Skid Row - 18 And Life.mp3
Skid Row - I Remember You.mp3
Snow Patrol-Chasing Cars.mp3
Soft Cell - Tainted Love.mp3
Spandau Ballet - True.mp3
Stephen Lynch - Talk to Me.mp3
Steve Miller Band - Abracadabra.mp3
Steve Miller Band - Jet Airliner.mp3
Steve Miller Band - Take the Money and Run.mp3
Steve Miller Band - The Joker.mp3
Steve Miller Band-Fly Like an Eagle.mp3
Stevie B - Because I love you.mp3
Stevie B - In My Eyes.mp3
Stevie B - One More Try.mp3
Stevie B - Spring Love.mp3
Stevie B. - I Wanna Be The One.mp3
Stevie Nicks - Edge Of Seventeen.mp3
Stevie Nicks - Stand Back.mp3
Sting - Desert Rose.mp3
Stray Cats - Rock This Town.mp3
Stray cats - Stray cat strut.mp3
Styx - Babe.mp3
Styx - Mr. Roboto.mp3
Sugar Hill Gang - Rappers Delight.mp3
Survivor - The Search Is Over.mp3
Survivor-The Eye of the Tiger.mp3
Sylvia - Your Nobody Called Today.mp3
taco - puttin' on the ritz.mp3
Talk Talk - Its My Life.mp3
Talking Heads - Burning Down the House.mp3
Tamyra Gray - A House Is Not A Home (American Idol).mp3
Taylor Hicks - Do I Make You Proud.mp3
Tears For Fears- Shout.mp3
The All-American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret.mp3
The Bangles - Manic Monday.mp3
The Beach Boys - Kokomo.mp3
The Buggles - Video Killed The Radio Star.mp3
The Cars - Drive.mp3
The Cars - Shake It Up.mp3
The Charlie Daniels Band - Devil Went Down To Georgia.mp3
The Clash - London Calling.mp3
The Clash - Rock The Kasbah.mp3
The Cure - Friday I'm In Love.MP3
The Escape Club, Wild Wild West.mp3
The Eye of the Tiger - Survivor.asx
The Highwaymen - Highwayman.mp3
The Killers - All These Things That I've Done.mp3
The Killers - Mr.Brightside.mp3
The Killers - Somebody Told Me.mp3
The Kinks - Come Dancing.mp3
The Night Chicago Died- Paper Lace.mp3
The Partridge Family - I Think I Love You.mp3
The Partridge Family - I Woke Up In Love This Morning.mp3
The Partridge Family - Point Me in the Direction of Albuquerque.mp3
The Pointer Sisters - Im So Excited.mp3
The Postal Service - Such Great Heights.mp3
The Proclaimers - I Would Walk 500 Miles.mp3
The Smiths - A Rush And A Push And The Land Is Ours.mp3
The Smiths - Ask Me.mp3
The Smiths - Death Of A Disco Dancer.mp3
The Smiths - Girlfriend In A Coma.mp3
The Smiths - How Soon Is Now.mp3
The Smiths - I Started Something I Couldn't Finish.mp3
The Smiths - Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me.mp3
The Smiths - Paint A Vulgar Picture.mp3
The Smiths - Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others.mp3
The Smiths - Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before.mp3
The Smiths - There Is A Light That Never Goes Out.mp3
The Smiths- Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now.mp3
The System - Don't Disturb This Groove.mp3
The Vapors - I Think I'm Turning Japanese.mp3
They Might Be Giants - Istanbul not Constantinople.mp3
Thomas Dolby - She Blinded Me With Science.mp3
Thompson Twins - Hold Me Now.mp3
Thompson Twins, The - Doctor Doctor.mp3
Tie A Yellow Ribbon Around The Old Oak Tree - Tony Orlando & Dawn.mp3
Tiffany - I Think We're Alone Now.mp3
Til Tuesday - Voices Carry.mp3
Tim McGraw - Don't Take The Girl.mp3
Time McGraw - Live Like You Were Dying.mp3
Timex Social Club - Rumors.mp3
Tina Turner - Private Dancer.mp3
Tina Turner - What's Love Got To Do With It.mp3
Toni Basil - Hey Mickey.mp3
Toni Braxton - Unbreak My Heart.mp3
Toto - Rosanna.mp3
Trace Adkins - Every Light In The House Is On.mp3
Trace Adkins - Then They Do.MP3
Tracy Chapman - Fast Car.mp3
TRANS X - Living On Video.MP3
U2 - One.mp3
USA for Africa-We are the world.mp3
Vanilla Ice - Ice Ice Baby.mp3
Village People - YMCA.mp3
Warrant - I Saw Red.mp3
Waylon Jennings-Dukes of Hazzard.mp3
Wham! - Last Christmas.mp3
When in Rome - The Promise.mp3
Whitney Houston - One Moment In Time.mp3
Yanni & Enya - Dances With Wolves.mp3
Yaz - Situation.mp3

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

There are so many obstacles in the journey of our lives. You can either choose to stop and decay in front of that obstacle OR choose to move it away and open way to continue your journey. So which path will I take? Humm. It's a hard choice.

Well this is scary....

DisorderYour Score
Major Depression:Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:High-Moderate
Cyclothymia:Very High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:Extremely High
Postpartum Depression:N/A
Take the Depression Test

Not sure how true it is though.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

So I haven't posted in forever....

So I haven't posted in forever, and I need to update...But I thought I would come and post my birth stories here since I typed them up for a friend (I love copy and paste!)

#1 Joshua was 14 days overdue. They sent me in to be induced. I had never had an untrasound (going to tree hugging mid wives). They had said "oh your breech" "oh it turned" over and over. Came to the conclusion the baby was head down. So 7am...put pit in. At 10:30pm I was finally dialated to 10. Pushing...yada yada...No pain meds whatsoever. So here comes something...and the midwives are all "oh dear, what is that?" And me thinking I am delivering an alien or something. Nope, it was his nuts. So they are telling me not to push (yeah right). They call the Dr. With each contraction his scrotum is coming out, then going in. So emergency C-section...he was finally born at 1:16 am the next day. His manhood was the size of a full grown man. Black and blue and blistered. (poor guy)
#2 Miscarriage at 8.5 weeks, at home. No complications.
#3 Miscarriage at 17 weeks. I delivered Tanner around 10 pm. The placenta wouldn't come out. I was on pitocin for HOURS trying to deliver the placenta. The Dr was a complete jerk. He had one hand on the outside and one inside tugging and finally came out about 6am as we were heading to the operating room. That hurt was worse that delivering ANY of my babies. (the tugging and pulling)
This period was years of trying to conceive with no luck. All sorts of painful tests and whatnot. I had given up on having anymore kids. I went to the Dr who delivered Joshua for a yearly exam. He noticed that my uterus was WAY tilted. My cervix was pointing upwards instead of down. (I am sure it was caused by the doctor yanking and pulling..he stretched the ligaments that hold up the uterus very badly.) So this Dr. tells me "If you want to get pregnant, have sex doggy style, then stay that way for 15 minutes...LOL" So we did, and I got pregnant.
#4 With Dallin I went into labor at 28 weeks. Bedrest...tributaline, it was a nightmare. I made it to term though. I had a scheduled C section, BUT...I was heading up to labor and delivery a week before the surgery to see my SIL who had had a miscarriage. My water broke in the elavator in the hospital. I asked the Dr to let me be and see what happened. 12 hours later, with the help of pit Dallin was born...also with no pain meds, and no complications.
#3 Also preterm labor, but not til 32 weeks. Bedrest, yada yada...but made it to term. I went into the hospital dialated to they broke my water. I was put on pit again. Baylee was born 7 hours later. No pain meds, no complications.
#4 No preterm labor with Tyleigh. I was dialated to 5 with bulging bags by 36 weeks though. They had me scheduled for a C-section. (this was the new hospital V-bacs due to new research and malpractice suits) I was almost 38 weeks. I told the Dr. I thought it was stupid to make me have a C-section when I was already dialated to 5. He agreed. I had to sign all kinds of wavers saying I understood the risks and I couldn't sue the hospital..yada yada. They took me in, broke my water at 8am. Again I had pit. This time I wanted to try some pain relief so I had an intrathecal (sp? It's a spinal but only lasts an hour). Well then I couldn't figure out how to She ended up having to be sucked out by the vacuum cuz her heart rate was wigging out. She was fine though :)

Monday, January 16, 2006

And now the News....

So that house that I soooo much want. The owners called me and they want us to rent it until we can buy!
He has an interview in Dallas on Friday, and if he gets the job we may be moving. Not sure how soon. They said "right away". But we still have to draw up papers for the house, and they have to buy a house in Texas so that may take a while.
I am really excited. Still not trying to get my hopes up too much. Farmer

Alright so now more news....

Ok before I start with the news I want to say that I love Grey's Anatomy.

This is one show that I NEVER miss!

Monday, January 09, 2006

New Hope....

(Edited to say that since this post we have found out the stuff dealing with the bankruptcy isn't true. We actually have to pay up til Oct for the 36 mo. to be up, and them we have another 18 months to pay after that...but we can pay it off without penalty. Not that that helps at way that we can come up with 4 grand. I guess we will see what happens)
So I got some pretty good news the other day.
I talked on the phone with my attorney, and he said that once our 36 months is up on our chapter 13 bankruptcy that we are DONE. All remaining balances are forgiven. (Ch.13 you pay back the debt...Ch.7 is where all your creditors just get I was under the impression that after the 3 yrs that they re-do the remaining balance. (And we would still owe over $5,000) So after March...we will be $231 richer every month and our Ch. 13 will be discharged. (See above edit)
Which means, we can BUY a home!
I know the house I want too. It isn't anything fancy...I don't do fancy. And it doesn't look very big on the outside, but it is actually a pretty big house. AND it comes with 1.5 acres, AND I have lived in it before so I know I like it.
6 bedrooms and 1.5 acres for $144,000. You can't find that Anywhere. And we know ALL of the neighbors. Right next door lives the bishop that Married Jared and I almost 13 yrs ago.
K a little background. When Dh and I were engaged, I didn't want to be in Cali while he was in Oregon, so I moved in with this awesome family who just happened to live in THIS house. (No way I would live with DH's family...they all have serious issues) We would wake up in the morning, sit at the kitchen table, and watch all the deer in the backyard. It was awesome.
Two more good things about this house... Being out in the country, you have a well and a septic system. Meaning NO water Bill! You also have a burn barrel, and you just burn your garbage. So no garbage bill either.There is a huge wood burning stove downstairs, and there are vents in the ceiling/floor...and the heat from this stove also heats the upstairs. NO MORE $264.00 gas bills. (Jared can cut a cord of wood for $5.00 right outside of town).
I talked to the owners of this house...and they said they would be willing to work with us. I'm not holding my breath, but I think it would be Awesome. It still had to be on the market, so there is a chance it could sell. But this moment anyhow, life is looking up, and I no longer want to hurl myself off a cliff. LOL
One more reason to move there: The nursing program at the local college. ALL of the colleges I have looked at to attend Nursing school, have at least 2 yrs of pre-requisites. This program is 2 yrs. No pre-reqs. 2 yrs of school and I will be an RN. This to me is just about reason enough in itself. This Program has also been on the top of the list in the nation too. I have heard the the local hospital, will pay for your schooling...if you sign a contract with them, to work there for a year or 2 once you are done with school.Another reason..(this will be the last one I swear) The school system there is AWESOME. People move there just for the schools. There are 2 wards in this town of under 1500 people.