And so is a long relationship.
Kind of sad actually, but it needs to be severed.
Jared's mother has hurt him for years, and he is not right sometimes because of it.
I will not allow the same thing to happen to my children. I will not allow my children to be hurt by their grandmother again. I will not allow her to make them feel second best.
Children should always be made to feel like they are the MOST special.
She always makes whoever is kissing her left butt cheek feel special, and everyone else she shuns.
The final straw was Tuesday night.
I found out that she was having a "Grandchildren Sleepover". My kids were not invited.
She lost 4 grand kids that night. She hurt them. She will not have the opportunity to do it again.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Boating accident
I was going through some stuff and found some old pictures.
They are anything but pretty.
They are pictures that the hospital took of Jared's side during the operation they did on him to sew him back together. (They are really graphic so if you have a weak stomach, stop when you get to the pictures.)
It was a Sunday. NEVER ever go water skiing on a Sunday. We knew better. I had promptings. They told me NOT to go. I didn't listen. It was August of 1996.
Jared and his friend Dave were water skiing at the same time. Dave fell. Jared fell too so that Kat (the lady driving the boat) could swing around give them both the ropes again. She wasn't paying attention I guess. She ran right over the top of Jared. He said "I'm hit!". Dave got in the boat, and we went to pick up Jared. He was bobbing up and down in a circle of red. His life jacket was hanging onto him by a thread. Dave somehow pulled him into the boat. When he was lifted out of the water it looked as if he had been attacked by a bear or a shark. It was the propeller.
For a few split seconds, I freaked. I put my face in my hands and I was going to just lose it. I thought he was going to die...I was sure of it. Then a voice in my head said "Don't do that" (meaning DON'T LOSE CONTROL) And a second time, but this time calmer, and slower "Don't do that". I took a deep breath and assessed the situation. Jared's sister Sharma and Joshua (who was 2 and 1/2 at the time) were on the boat too. Sharma was screaming. I yelled at her "Shut up Sharma!" And motioned for her to try and keep Joshua from being able to see his dad all cut up and bloody. I told Dave to get us to shore (this was before the days of the cell phone boom). On the way to the shore I pushed towels into Jared's side with my knees and used all of my body weight to apply pressure. Jared kept shutting his eyes. I thought he was passing out so I was slapping him to try and keep him awake. He finally told me he was closing his eyes because of the sun so that I would stop smacking him. By time we reached the shore (a matter of maybe 3 or 4 minutes) I had his bleeding completely stopped. We rammed the boat into the dock coming in so fast. There happened to be an EMT on shore. They called the hospital who in called life flight. Life flight was busy, so they took him by ambulance to Holy Rosary Medical Center (about 25 miles away) where they fixed him all up.
He had busted out a few ribs, sliced open his lung (so it collapsed) cut his diaphragm, and his liver. He also had the same cuts on his thighs. The doctor said that the most threatening cut was actually one that is not pictured. A cut that was less than a centimeter from severing his femoral artery. The Dr. said if that had happened he would have bled to death.
Jared spent 8 days in the hospital. He has so many visitors that the part of the room meant for another patient, was cleared out and just chairs put there.
These pictures are in order from before they started the operation, to when they were finished and had him all stapled up.
I was calm the whole time. I helped the nurses so everything from changing dressings, bathing him, emptying his pee bag, measuring the fluid from his chest tubes and other fun stuff...and they all said "you should be a nurse". I had never thought about it before. But since that day, that is what I thought I might like to do.
They are anything but pretty.
They are pictures that the hospital took of Jared's side during the operation they did on him to sew him back together. (They are really graphic so if you have a weak stomach, stop when you get to the pictures.)
It was a Sunday. NEVER ever go water skiing on a Sunday. We knew better. I had promptings. They told me NOT to go. I didn't listen. It was August of 1996.
Jared and his friend Dave were water skiing at the same time. Dave fell. Jared fell too so that Kat (the lady driving the boat) could swing around give them both the ropes again. She wasn't paying attention I guess. She ran right over the top of Jared. He said "I'm hit!". Dave got in the boat, and we went to pick up Jared. He was bobbing up and down in a circle of red. His life jacket was hanging onto him by a thread. Dave somehow pulled him into the boat. When he was lifted out of the water it looked as if he had been attacked by a bear or a shark. It was the propeller.
For a few split seconds, I freaked. I put my face in my hands and I was going to just lose it. I thought he was going to die...I was sure of it. Then a voice in my head said "Don't do that" (meaning DON'T LOSE CONTROL) And a second time, but this time calmer, and slower "Don't do that". I took a deep breath and assessed the situation. Jared's sister Sharma and Joshua (who was 2 and 1/2 at the time) were on the boat too. Sharma was screaming. I yelled at her "Shut up Sharma!" And motioned for her to try and keep Joshua from being able to see his dad all cut up and bloody. I told Dave to get us to shore (this was before the days of the cell phone boom). On the way to the shore I pushed towels into Jared's side with my knees and used all of my body weight to apply pressure. Jared kept shutting his eyes. I thought he was passing out so I was slapping him to try and keep him awake. He finally told me he was closing his eyes because of the sun so that I would stop smacking him. By time we reached the shore (a matter of maybe 3 or 4 minutes) I had his bleeding completely stopped. We rammed the boat into the dock coming in so fast. There happened to be an EMT on shore. They called the hospital who in called life flight. Life flight was busy, so they took him by ambulance to Holy Rosary Medical Center (about 25 miles away) where they fixed him all up.
He had busted out a few ribs, sliced open his lung (so it collapsed) cut his diaphragm, and his liver. He also had the same cuts on his thighs. The doctor said that the most threatening cut was actually one that is not pictured. A cut that was less than a centimeter from severing his femoral artery. The Dr. said if that had happened he would have bled to death.
Jared spent 8 days in the hospital. He has so many visitors that the part of the room meant for another patient, was cleared out and just chairs put there.
These pictures are in order from before they started the operation, to when they were finished and had him all stapled up.
I was calm the whole time. I helped the nurses so everything from changing dressings, bathing him, emptying his pee bag, measuring the fluid from his chest tubes and other fun stuff...and they all said "you should be a nurse". I had never thought about it before. But since that day, that is what I thought I might like to do.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Appreciation
The last 3 days had made me develop a stronger appreciation for my children.
I am totally stressed out and exhausted from crying and looking on the internet.
Dallin has developed a weird tic. From what I have found from researching I am scared. It could be the start of Tourettes Syndrome, or it could be a simple motor tic that could go away on its own..it could be because of a brain tumor...yada yada I can't even think I've read so much this evening. The poor kid.
He like pulls his chin up in the air and up-stretches his neck, then he does a little tic at the end. It comes in clusters. It has just been in the last couple days...and I thought it was just him doing something weird. But today he complains that he ISN'T doing it. He can't stop them and it is driving him nuts. I feel so bad. I don't know what to do.
We have no medical insurance and I cannot afford a CT scan or an MRI. (Which from what I am reading is what the Dr.s will order). I am really scared. I am praying that is goes away all by itself. I am going to have Jared and Uncle Dennis give him a blessing this weekend too. I asked the Sheltons to put his name on the prayer roll tomorrow. They said they would be glad to.
I am trying to decide whether to get medical insurance or have groceries. We make too much for state help, and if we get insurance our self then we will be on the verge of starving to death. I am afraid to take him to the Dr. now, and it being something serious...Then NOBODY would cover him because it would be pre-existing, And we would be stuck paying everything our self which would be impossible. Jared's job offers insurance but it is almost 800 bucks a month out of our pocket, plus it sucks. Totally ridiculous! I am finding insurance on the internet for around 475 but still...that is going to really make it hard to live month to month. I am even thinking about getting a job. I just hope it miraculously disappears.
He really is a smart kid. Very sweet and soft spoken, and shy. This is going to draw attention to him. He doesn't like being the center of attention. This is going to make him withdraw. He hasn't said anything about his friends saying anything about it yet, but they HAVE to notice it.
I have parent teacher conference on Thursday for him, and will ask if his teacher notices anything.
Today hasn't been as bad as yesterday. His neck/chin tick isn't as bad. And it seems to have a shoulder shrug with it today, which either makes it less noticeable or the tick just isn't as bad as it was...I can't decide. Also I did notice another tick. He makes his eyebrows go up all the time. I didn't notice it, because he does it all the time. I thought it was just a habit. Now I know better.
I am totally stressed out and exhausted from crying and looking on the internet.
Dallin has developed a weird tic. From what I have found from researching I am scared. It could be the start of Tourettes Syndrome, or it could be a simple motor tic that could go away on its own..it could be because of a brain tumor...yada yada I can't even think I've read so much this evening. The poor kid.
He like pulls his chin up in the air and up-stretches his neck, then he does a little tic at the end. It comes in clusters. It has just been in the last couple days...and I thought it was just him doing something weird. But today he complains that he ISN'T doing it. He can't stop them and it is driving him nuts. I feel so bad. I don't know what to do.
We have no medical insurance and I cannot afford a CT scan or an MRI. (Which from what I am reading is what the Dr.s will order). I am really scared. I am praying that is goes away all by itself. I am going to have Jared and Uncle Dennis give him a blessing this weekend too. I asked the Sheltons to put his name on the prayer roll tomorrow. They said they would be glad to.
I am trying to decide whether to get medical insurance or have groceries. We make too much for state help, and if we get insurance our self then we will be on the verge of starving to death. I am afraid to take him to the Dr. now, and it being something serious...Then NOBODY would cover him because it would be pre-existing, And we would be stuck paying everything our self which would be impossible. Jared's job offers insurance but it is almost 800 bucks a month out of our pocket, plus it sucks. Totally ridiculous! I am finding insurance on the internet for around 475 but still...that is going to really make it hard to live month to month. I am even thinking about getting a job. I just hope it miraculously disappears.
He really is a smart kid. Very sweet and soft spoken, and shy. This is going to draw attention to him. He doesn't like being the center of attention. This is going to make him withdraw. He hasn't said anything about his friends saying anything about it yet, but they HAVE to notice it.
I have parent teacher conference on Thursday for him, and will ask if his teacher notices anything.
Today hasn't been as bad as yesterday. His neck/chin tick isn't as bad. And it seems to have a shoulder shrug with it today, which either makes it less noticeable or the tick just isn't as bad as it was...I can't decide. Also I did notice another tick. He makes his eyebrows go up all the time. I didn't notice it, because he does it all the time. I thought it was just a habit. Now I know better.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Our trip to the coast....
Ahhh...I miss it already.
We picked the kids up from school early on Thursday. We were going to go through Burns and Bend but decided at the last minute just to take the interstate (the weather was bad both ways but way worse over Santiam Pass (required chain up) than to go over Ladd Canyon and Cabbage. There was quite a bit of snow on The inter-state and the big rigs had to chain up but it wasn't too bad.
When we got to the Columbia River there was a huge paddle boat that was a casino. It reminded me of Tom Sawyer and Huck Finn. Between Arlington and John Day, there are cliffs all along the left side of the highway. We spotted several small herds of Mountain goats and Big horned sheep. It was pretty cool.
The Multnomah Falls were beautiful!
We didn't get to the hotel til 8:30 or so. We dropped our stuff off at the hotel and went potty (we all had to go bad! LOL) and then we ate dinner at Lee's Chinese Restaurant. I had the terryaki chicken, it was yummo! On the way back to the motel we stopped in a park to listen to the waves. I have so missed that wonderful sound. I could have slept right there.
The next morning I set the alarm to walk the beach and look for glass floats. It was sprinkling a bit and sort of chilly. Tyleigh was sleeping and Joshuas shorts were too small (he packed himself) so Jared and the other 2 kiddos went with me to the beach. Walking the beach was amazingly relaxing, even thought my toes were frozen...lol I didn't find a float :(
We went back to the hotel, got cleaned up and went to the "Pig and Pancake" for breakfast. It was the most delicious breakfast I have had in a long time. I highly recommend it.
We decided to drive to Newport and got to the aquarium since it was very rainy and it was expected that Saturday be a nicer day. First of all we stopped at Mariners Square, right on the port. Unfortunately the Undersea gardens were closed and we didn't want to pay full price to just do Ripleys Believe it Or Not , and the wax museum. We did stand out by the pier and watch some crabbing boats and a noisy seal.
It only took a couple hours to see everything, but the kids really enjoyed it.
The kids in an "aquarium".
The kids touching sea urchins and starfish.
There was a huge Aquarium with Sharks and sting rays which the kids really loved. But their favorite thing was the Sea Lion and seals. We probably watched them for 30 minutes. There was a one that made us laugh every time it swam by because it was always upside down. We were also lucky enough to be there at feeding time and they did lots of cool tricks for us.
An otter rolled up into a ball.
We headed back to Lincoln City and found Gallucci's Pizzeria. The pizza was descent, the salad bar was good, but the best part was that we spent probably 40 bucks on video game tokens and had a blast with the kids.
We headed over to the outlet malls and had a god time rushing around to all the stores before they closed at 6 (it is still off season for them so everything seems to close early). We bought the kids all sorts of stuff they didn't really need. Jared got a 100 dollar wallet for 19 bucks and I got a much needed HAT! My hair doesn't like the humidity...AND I thought the hat looked cute on me too...LOL
After the Outlet mall we went bowling. We haven't done that since Joshua was small, and we had a terrific time.
We were all basically exhausted at this point and decided to head over the the DQ for some burgers and ice cream. We took them back to the hotel and ate and vegged until everyone crashed.
We got up and everyone wanted to go to the Pig and Pancake again...lol So we did. The waitress wasn't as good as the Friday's but the food was still fabulous.
Joshua needed a pair of swim trunks and we all wanted some flipflops or water shoes so we headed to the Goodwill. I love those thrift stores...(yep I'm a freak..lol). We all got shoes and buckets for the beach and we headed for the beach. We spent a long while there just walking, gathering shells and watching people fly kites. It was so fun and relaxing...and a bit nippy but not bad.
We went to Mo's for an early dinner. http://moschowder.com/ It was awesome to sit and eat dinner, and be able to watch the ocean at the same time. There is a pier there that has binoculars too. We took our time eating dinner and looking in the gift shop. I bought myself a small glass float. Next time I am going to blow my own glass float. (there are a couple places in town to do that).
We headed back to the hotel and changed again. We headed back to the beach. We spent quite a while there, and didn't leave until after sunset. I am going to miss it.
We went back to the hotel again, and got cleaned up. We headed to cold stone for ice cream. We took another drive around town and headed back to the hotel and chilled.
For Sunday there isn't to say. We left the hotel, went to McD's for breakfast, stopped at the falls, saw some more mountain goats and sheep ate lunch at Wendy's and got home around 6.
we want to go back sometime again before school starts at the end of August. Not sure if we will be able to afford it again so soon, but for sure next time I will pay extra to stay in an ocean front inn, because the ocean if where we wanted to be most of the time.
We picked the kids up from school early on Thursday. We were going to go through Burns and Bend but decided at the last minute just to take the interstate (the weather was bad both ways but way worse over Santiam Pass (required chain up) than to go over Ladd Canyon and Cabbage. There was quite a bit of snow on The inter-state and the big rigs had to chain up but it wasn't too bad.
When we got to the Columbia River there was a huge paddle boat that was a casino. It reminded me of Tom Sawyer and Huck Finn. Between Arlington and John Day, there are cliffs all along the left side of the highway. We spotted several small herds of Mountain goats and Big horned sheep. It was pretty cool.
The Multnomah Falls were beautiful!
We didn't get to the hotel til 8:30 or so. We dropped our stuff off at the hotel and went potty (we all had to go bad! LOL) and then we ate dinner at Lee's Chinese Restaurant. I had the terryaki chicken, it was yummo! On the way back to the motel we stopped in a park to listen to the waves. I have so missed that wonderful sound. I could have slept right there.
The next morning I set the alarm to walk the beach and look for glass floats. It was sprinkling a bit and sort of chilly. Tyleigh was sleeping and Joshuas shorts were too small (he packed himself) so Jared and the other 2 kiddos went with me to the beach. Walking the beach was amazingly relaxing, even thought my toes were frozen...lol I didn't find a float :(
We went back to the hotel, got cleaned up and went to the "Pig and Pancake" for breakfast. It was the most delicious breakfast I have had in a long time. I highly recommend it.
We decided to drive to Newport and got to the aquarium since it was very rainy and it was expected that Saturday be a nicer day. First of all we stopped at Mariners Square, right on the port. Unfortunately the Undersea gardens were closed and we didn't want to pay full price to just do Ripleys Believe it Or Not , and the wax museum. We did stand out by the pier and watch some crabbing boats and a noisy seal.
It only took a couple hours to see everything, but the kids really enjoyed it.
The kids in an "aquarium". The kids touching sea urchins and starfish.
There was a huge Aquarium with Sharks and sting rays which the kids really loved. But their favorite thing was the Sea Lion and seals. We probably watched them for 30 minutes. There was a one that made us laugh every time it swam by because it was always upside down. We were also lucky enough to be there at feeding time and they did lots of cool tricks for us.
An otter rolled up into a ball. We headed back to Lincoln City and found Gallucci's Pizzeria. The pizza was descent, the salad bar was good, but the best part was that we spent probably 40 bucks on video game tokens and had a blast with the kids.
We headed over to the outlet malls and had a god time rushing around to all the stores before they closed at 6 (it is still off season for them so everything seems to close early). We bought the kids all sorts of stuff they didn't really need. Jared got a 100 dollar wallet for 19 bucks and I got a much needed HAT! My hair doesn't like the humidity...AND I thought the hat looked cute on me too...LOL
After the Outlet mall we went bowling. We haven't done that since Joshua was small, and we had a terrific time.
We were all basically exhausted at this point and decided to head over the the DQ for some burgers and ice cream. We took them back to the hotel and ate and vegged until everyone crashed.
We got up and everyone wanted to go to the Pig and Pancake again...lol So we did. The waitress wasn't as good as the Friday's but the food was still fabulous.
Joshua needed a pair of swim trunks and we all wanted some flipflops or water shoes so we headed to the Goodwill. I love those thrift stores...(yep I'm a freak..lol). We all got shoes and buckets for the beach and we headed for the beach. We spent a long while there just walking, gathering shells and watching people fly kites. It was so fun and relaxing...and a bit nippy but not bad.
We went to Mo's for an early dinner. http://moschowder.com/ It was awesome to sit and eat dinner, and be able to watch the ocean at the same time. There is a pier there that has binoculars too. We took our time eating dinner and looking in the gift shop. I bought myself a small glass float. Next time I am going to blow my own glass float. (there are a couple places in town to do that).
We headed back to the hotel and changed again. We headed back to the beach. We spent quite a while there, and didn't leave until after sunset. I am going to miss it.
We went back to the hotel again, and got cleaned up. We headed to cold stone for ice cream. We took another drive around town and headed back to the hotel and chilled.
For Sunday there isn't to say. We left the hotel, went to McD's for breakfast, stopped at the falls, saw some more mountain goats and sheep ate lunch at Wendy's and got home around 6.
we want to go back sometime again before school starts at the end of August. Not sure if we will be able to afford it again so soon, but for sure next time I will pay extra to stay in an ocean front inn, because the ocean if where we wanted to be most of the time.
Monday, February 26, 2007
Ah! Time for a vacation!
We are going to the Coast this weekend.
I am so excited! I haven't been to the beach for such a long time, and I love the beach. It is so relaxing.
We are staying in Lincoln City at Captain Cooks Inn http://www.captaincookinn.com/
We are getting the Kitchen Suite (you can do a virtual tour if you wanna see it). It has 2 queen beds and a hide a bed in the living room, bathroom, kitchen. It is 5 blocks from the beach. It is owned by an LDS family.
One cool thing about Lincoln City is the Glass Floats.
Back in the 1930s and '40s, beachcombers routinely stumbled across glass balls that had washed up in Oregon after a long ocean voyage. These floats from Japanese fisherman's nets were eventually replaced with plastic ones and the unusual souvenirs all but disappeared. Then in 1999, Lincoln City revived the magic of finding these ocean-borne treasures. Between October and May, discreet "float fairies" plant 2,005 multicolored, handcrafted glass spheres—the biggest are six inches in diameter—along local beaches. Lucky float finders are permitted to keep the miniature art pieces. When you find a float, you call the Visitor Center, and register your float. They will send a Certificate of Authenticity and information about the artists that crafted your float. Some numbers are selected at random to receive additional prizes, so registering is important. They put out the number of floats reflected by the year - so 2001 in 2001, 2002 in 2002, etc..... So this year they will put out 2007 floats. I am determined to find one! They are beautiful. If I don't find one I will have to buy one.
We are also going to go to Newport and go to the aquarium. http://www.aquarium.org/ We may go to another place called Mariner Square http://www.marinersquare.com/ Which has the Oregon Undersea Gardens, Ripley’s Believe It or Not, and The Wax Works. Then there is whale watching at Depoe Bay, which isn't at it's peak til mid march but there is a chance we could see some.
There is a big outlet mall that we will hit too, sometime during the weekend. There are 65 stores, it is pretty huge.
I just hope that the kids and Jared *snicker* behave themselves so it turns out to be a Vacation and not a nightmare!
I am so excited! I haven't been to the beach for such a long time, and I love the beach. It is so relaxing.
We are staying in Lincoln City at Captain Cooks Inn http://www.captaincookinn.com/
We are getting the Kitchen Suite (you can do a virtual tour if you wanna see it). It has 2 queen beds and a hide a bed in the living room, bathroom, kitchen. It is 5 blocks from the beach. It is owned by an LDS family.
One cool thing about Lincoln City is the Glass Floats.
Back in the 1930s and '40s, beachcombers routinely stumbled across glass balls that had washed up in Oregon after a long ocean voyage. These floats from Japanese fisherman's nets were eventually replaced with plastic ones and the unusual souvenirs all but disappeared. Then in 1999, Lincoln City revived the magic of finding these ocean-borne treasures. Between October and May, discreet "float fairies" plant 2,005 multicolored, handcrafted glass spheres—the biggest are six inches in diameter—along local beaches. Lucky float finders are permitted to keep the miniature art pieces. When you find a float, you call the Visitor Center, and register your float. They will send a Certificate of Authenticity and information about the artists that crafted your float. Some numbers are selected at random to receive additional prizes, so registering is important. They put out the number of floats reflected by the year - so 2001 in 2001, 2002 in 2002, etc..... So this year they will put out 2007 floats. I am determined to find one! They are beautiful. If I don't find one I will have to buy one.
We are also going to go to Newport and go to the aquarium. http://www.aquarium.org/ We may go to another place called Mariner Square http://www.marinersquare.com/ Which has the Oregon Undersea Gardens, Ripley’s Believe It or Not, and The Wax Works. Then there is whale watching at Depoe Bay, which isn't at it's peak til mid march but there is a chance we could see some.
There is a big outlet mall that we will hit too, sometime during the weekend. There are 65 stores, it is pretty huge.
I just hope that the kids and Jared *snicker* behave themselves so it turns out to be a Vacation and not a nightmare!
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Finally!
I can't believe it. Tomorrow we go and sign the papers on the house. Finally.
I was unsure if I wanted to stay here, with all the things that are happening with Jared's family...BUT our prayers were answered. We are supposed to be here. For what reason? I am not quite sure, but I am sure we will discover it sooner or later.
We haven't went anywhere in SOOOOO long. I mean years. Since we don't have to pay rent next month and our first mortgage payment won't be due til April, we are going to go somewhere for the weekend, next Friday. Probably the coast, but I am not sure yet. I am excited to get away for a couple days, that is for sure.
I was unsure if I wanted to stay here, with all the things that are happening with Jared's family...BUT our prayers were answered. We are supposed to be here. For what reason? I am not quite sure, but I am sure we will discover it sooner or later.
We haven't went anywhere in SOOOOO long. I mean years. Since we don't have to pay rent next month and our first mortgage payment won't be due til April, we are going to go somewhere for the weekend, next Friday. Probably the coast, but I am not sure yet. I am excited to get away for a couple days, that is for sure.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Why is life so complicated? (Part Deux)
So here I go again. I should probably just shut up about this stuff but then I figure I should finish what I started. Plus this gets it off my shoulders without saying it directly to them. Sort of like a letter that you don't mail. (I've done those before too, they really work)
So We did mom and dad, and so now we are at siblings.
Jason. I believe Jason is a compulsive liar. He told his wife he was a virgin when they got married (not true about 10 times over), and that he served his full 2 year mission and had an honorable discharge (also not true. He was sent home because he became engaged. Seriously.). He is sooo selfish. Growing up his family was very poor. So now that he is an adult and he has a job and what not, he is making up for his lack of toys in childhood and filling his adult life with toys that he cannot afford at the expense of his children and soon to be ex-wife.
He just took a trip to see some friends with his new girlfriend in tow, telling everyone that he got divorced last fall so that nobody will know that he is a cheating *blankity blank*. He has to drive fancy cars he cannot afford and buy clothes that IMO make him look gay as a jaybird just to make himself feel better. He is a mama's boy all the way. He could be standing over a dead body with a bloody knife in his hand and be able to convince his mama that it was the dead persons fault and he is the victim.
Sharma. Of the two girls she is the one that took the most crap growing up. She has been very promiscuous since she was a teenager. She has 2 sons. Both out of wedlock, and the second one she doesn't know who the father is. She was a welfare case for many years but she has now been an CNA for a couple years. She has married a weird but descent man and they are now leading somewhat of a normal life with her 2 boys.
Shanna. The youngest. She also cannot do any wrong in mama's eyes. She was promiscuous as a teenager also. She is married to a drug using bump on a log who is covered in tattoos. He is currently in jail for the gazillionth time for peeing dirty. She has 2 beautiful but out of control kids who CPS keeps threatening to take away because their house is filthy. Her and her husband have both been unfaithful many times and it seems to me that neither of them care. Maybe they have an "open marriage"?
After all of the things that I have found out in the past few weeks about Jared's family, I seriously wonder how in the heck Jared turned out as good as he did. I really feel sorry for him.
He is a good man. He just has some issues. He has done SOOO well the last 8-10 months that I think maybe he has overcome a huge hurdle. He is trying to be an excellent father and husband, and I think he is doing a wonderful job...especially knowing how he was brought up.
Ok so there won't be a part 3. I am not saying I won't complain on my blog about my In laws again....but I am putting it to rest for a while.
So We did mom and dad, and so now we are at siblings.
Jason. I believe Jason is a compulsive liar. He told his wife he was a virgin when they got married (not true about 10 times over), and that he served his full 2 year mission and had an honorable discharge (also not true. He was sent home because he became engaged. Seriously.). He is sooo selfish. Growing up his family was very poor. So now that he is an adult and he has a job and what not, he is making up for his lack of toys in childhood and filling his adult life with toys that he cannot afford at the expense of his children and soon to be ex-wife.
He just took a trip to see some friends with his new girlfriend in tow, telling everyone that he got divorced last fall so that nobody will know that he is a cheating *blankity blank*. He has to drive fancy cars he cannot afford and buy clothes that IMO make him look gay as a jaybird just to make himself feel better. He is a mama's boy all the way. He could be standing over a dead body with a bloody knife in his hand and be able to convince his mama that it was the dead persons fault and he is the victim.
Sharma. Of the two girls she is the one that took the most crap growing up. She has been very promiscuous since she was a teenager. She has 2 sons. Both out of wedlock, and the second one she doesn't know who the father is. She was a welfare case for many years but she has now been an CNA for a couple years. She has married a weird but descent man and they are now leading somewhat of a normal life with her 2 boys.
Shanna. The youngest. She also cannot do any wrong in mama's eyes. She was promiscuous as a teenager also. She is married to a drug using bump on a log who is covered in tattoos. He is currently in jail for the gazillionth time for peeing dirty. She has 2 beautiful but out of control kids who CPS keeps threatening to take away because their house is filthy. Her and her husband have both been unfaithful many times and it seems to me that neither of them care. Maybe they have an "open marriage"?
After all of the things that I have found out in the past few weeks about Jared's family, I seriously wonder how in the heck Jared turned out as good as he did. I really feel sorry for him.
He is a good man. He just has some issues. He has done SOOO well the last 8-10 months that I think maybe he has overcome a huge hurdle. He is trying to be an excellent father and husband, and I think he is doing a wonderful job...especially knowing how he was brought up.
Ok so there won't be a part 3. I am not saying I won't complain on my blog about my In laws again....but I am putting it to rest for a while.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Country Roads
Is there a song that makes you cry? And NOT because the song is sad. I was thinking (VERY DANGEROUS..lol) about my dad this morning, and about a song that makes me sad every time I hear it.
My mom and dad's 50th Wedding anniversary was June 10th 1999. We were having a big ole' party for them (my brothers and sister planned it and we were holding it at the stake center). I was on my way to their house in California from Oregon. Joshua was with his grandma, and I was taking Dallin with me and Jared was in front of me, in his Semi-Truck. He had to deliver something in Salt Lake and we were traveling together to that point.Jared pulls over and I follow. And he comes walking up to my window and I could tell something was wrong. Before he could say anything I said "Is something wrong with Joshua?" and he couldn't speak, he just shook his head. The next words out of my mouth were "My dad's dead isn't he". And he nodded.
I hadn't seen my dad in months, and I was ON MY WAY to their house! If he would have died the next day I would have been there! Or if I would have left a day earlier I could have seen him one last time.So everytime I hear the song "Country Roads" I cry because of this line "Driving down the road I had a feeling that I should have been home yesterday, yesterday."
Take Me Home, Country Roads
(John Denver)
Almost heaven, West Virginia
Blue Ridge Mountains, Shenandoah River
Life is old there, older than the trees
Younger than the mountains, blowing like a breeze
Country roads, take me home
To the place, I be-long
West Virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, Country Roads
All my mem'ries, gather 'round her
Miner's lady, stranger to blue water
Dark and dusty, painted on the sky
Misty taste of moonshine, teardrops in my eyes
Country roads, take me homeTo the place, I be-long
West Virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, Country Roads
I hear her voice, in the mornin' hours she calls to me
The radio reminds me of my home far a-way
And drivin' down the road I get a feeling'That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday
Country roads, take me home
To the place, I be-long
West Virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, Country Roads
So is there a song that makes you sad for unapparent reasons?
My mom and dad's 50th Wedding anniversary was June 10th 1999. We were having a big ole' party for them (my brothers and sister planned it and we were holding it at the stake center). I was on my way to their house in California from Oregon. Joshua was with his grandma, and I was taking Dallin with me and Jared was in front of me, in his Semi-Truck. He had to deliver something in Salt Lake and we were traveling together to that point.Jared pulls over and I follow. And he comes walking up to my window and I could tell something was wrong. Before he could say anything I said "Is something wrong with Joshua?" and he couldn't speak, he just shook his head. The next words out of my mouth were "My dad's dead isn't he". And he nodded.
I hadn't seen my dad in months, and I was ON MY WAY to their house! If he would have died the next day I would have been there! Or if I would have left a day earlier I could have seen him one last time.So everytime I hear the song "Country Roads" I cry because of this line "Driving down the road I had a feeling that I should have been home yesterday, yesterday."
Take Me Home, Country Roads
(John Denver)
Almost heaven, West Virginia
Blue Ridge Mountains, Shenandoah River
Life is old there, older than the trees
Younger than the mountains, blowing like a breeze
Country roads, take me home
To the place, I be-long
West Virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, Country Roads
All my mem'ries, gather 'round her
Miner's lady, stranger to blue water
Dark and dusty, painted on the sky
Misty taste of moonshine, teardrops in my eyes
Country roads, take me homeTo the place, I be-long
West Virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, Country Roads
I hear her voice, in the mornin' hours she calls to me
The radio reminds me of my home far a-way
And drivin' down the road I get a feeling'That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday
Country roads, take me home
To the place, I be-long
West Virginia, mountain momma
Take me home, Country Roads
So is there a song that makes you sad for unapparent reasons?
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Why is life so complicated? (Part 1)
I'm really not liking this being an adult thing.
When we moved here I thought "Ah, we never have to move again!" We have moved SOOO many times in the 13 years we have been married. I try counting and stop at 20 because I just get overwhelmed. It is probably somewhere around 25-30. It is amazing.
So now we are close to buying this house. (I feel like we have to jump through so many hoops because of the bankruptcy, I wonder if it is worth it!) The one I felt we were destined to buy. The one I believe we were led to. I really did (do?) think we were meant to move here. But now I am wondering why, or if it is even true. Maybe I just imagined the feelings?
This whole things with Jared's family has me wanting to run for the hills. This house is just down the road from his mother, and we are within 45 minutes of all of his freaky siblings. Wanna know more? Lets start with the parents.....
Jim, Jared's father... was abused BAD as a kid both mentally and physically. So then Jim abused Jared. He was also this Jekyll and Hyde person that Jared is, and I hate him for that. The only time that Jared's dad didn't scare the piss out of me is when he was near death. Not that he was mean all of the time, but you never knew when he was going to snap and I hated it.
Shari, Jared's mother...was also somewhat abused growing up but has a much more stable life than Jim. She infuriates me though with her "I am a victim" crap. She stood by and watched while Jim abused the kids and I believe was a participant also. She treats her kids all differently. Jared was treated worst of all. Here is an email I sent to her recently:
Since I don't know quite where to start, but I want to be honest I will just start listing things about you that bug me. Remember that these are my opinions and my feelings. Try not to get too angry while reading it. It isn't meant to hurt you. I did write them while I was angry though, so it might come acrossed more rough than I want it to.
1. You have always treated Jared differently. I guess I should say more different. In my mind you have always treated Jason best. Then Shanna. Then Sharma. Then Jared. Why? What did Jared to do you even as a young boy for you to treat him so differently than the other kids? Do you want to know MY opinion why you treat him differently? Jared reminds you of Jim. You look at Jared and you think of all of the bad things about Jim. I think the second reason you hate Jared is that from a very young age he stopped needing you. He had his own job, his own money. When he had problems he didn't go running to mama like the other kids did (or still do in some cases). Moms are supposed to be #1 with their kids. You felt neglected by him when you wanted to be his number 1, and you weren't.
2. The thing that you don't buy your own children birthday presents unless they buy YOU one. That is just plain weird. That is a special day, when a precious gift came into your life. I don't know any Mother who doesn't buy their child a gift to commemorate that day and show their love.
3. The way you justify the wrong things that some of your children do, and then shun some for doing the same thing. And how you try to cover up for them. (You have always done this, this isn't just a recent occurrence).
4. The way you buy some of your grandchildren more stuff than others. All of your grandchildren need coats, and school supplies etc.
5. You go around telling people we owe you this and that for that Les Schwab bill when you go out and buy stuff for Jason and he gets behind on paying you back and we don't hear you backstabbing him but you go around talking to people about what we owe you? I paid that Les Schwab bill faithfully! I paid what I though we owed, and then found out that others had been putting things on the account too. Sorry, but I am not paying for other peoples batteries or tires. (We put some tires on her account, this was several years ago)
6. When Tanner died and we asked about burying him with Jim. We were given the answer no. I think you spent some money on a little bundle of flowers for him and I was grateful. But, Then when Brianna was born you allowed Shanna and Kyle to bury her with Jim. This broke my heart. You also bought tons of stuff for Shanna/Brianna. I don't remember what it all was but I know Shanna has alot of stuff to remember Brianna (Commemorative Box or book or both? And other stuff that I know YOU purchased for her.) I would have loved that stuff for my sweet baby boy too. But of course it was Jared's child, and I am not your daughter. It was These experiences that effected me so profoundly that I could not call you mom.
7. The way you act like you don't talk about people behind their backs, but you do. You talk about almost everyone. Everyone does, nobody is innocent here.
8. I've always thought that you didn't like me because I moved in with Marilyn and not you. (Before Jared and I got married I moved to Vale and refused to live with them).
9. I used to think that all of your children's problems were because of Jim. Now I realize that part of their problems are because of you. You weren't a victim, You were the parent too.
10. You try to play the martyr.
There might be more. (I am sure you are thinking "there is more!?!?!") If I think of something else I will send a number 11. I just want to get this all of my chest and start fresh. I would like you to do the same, and I will try not to take it the wrong way.
Lisa
So I got that all out in the open and it made me feel better. BUT then the neighbors (the really sweet ones next door...he used to be our bishop and married Jared and I) heard Shari's side of the story and when Dallin went in for his Baptismal interview, the Bishop called Jared in also and asked him if he thought he was worthy to baptize Dallin after the way he has treated his mother. WTH????? She is the one who left a message on Jared's phone and called him a lying F***er! She is the one who said she washed her hands of all of us and for all of us to go to Hell. All we did was told her the truth about what her precious angel son was doing.
She has known for 5 or 6 months that Jason has been talking to women on the Internet. I told her she should have told Brandy THEN what Jason was doing. She let Jason bring the other woman into her house and then proceeded to tell Jared and I how nice and bubbly she is. WTH???? I said "WHAT??" You let her in your house?" Said "well it isn't her fault" And I said "the hell it isn't. She KNOWS THAT HE IS MARRIED! In my eyes that makes her a wh*re." (Sorry for the language but that is what I said, and I may be a little bit more sensitive to this since I have been through it.)
Oh I am so mad at her. I do not know how she can go around convincing people that Jared and I are the "bad ones" when Jason is the one who left his wife and kids, who is committing adultery, the one who is trying to screw his children out of child support, the one who is the big fat liar! And she again is playing the victim. She took a week off of work for "mental hardship" or some BS. And telling the bishop Jared is being mean to her? I just don't get it. I don't get how people don't have a conscience, and I don't understand why people believe all the lies.
When we moved here I thought "Ah, we never have to move again!" We have moved SOOO many times in the 13 years we have been married. I try counting and stop at 20 because I just get overwhelmed. It is probably somewhere around 25-30. It is amazing.
So now we are close to buying this house. (I feel like we have to jump through so many hoops because of the bankruptcy, I wonder if it is worth it!) The one I felt we were destined to buy. The one I believe we were led to. I really did (do?) think we were meant to move here. But now I am wondering why, or if it is even true. Maybe I just imagined the feelings?
This whole things with Jared's family has me wanting to run for the hills. This house is just down the road from his mother, and we are within 45 minutes of all of his freaky siblings. Wanna know more? Lets start with the parents.....
Jim, Jared's father... was abused BAD as a kid both mentally and physically. So then Jim abused Jared. He was also this Jekyll and Hyde person that Jared is, and I hate him for that. The only time that Jared's dad didn't scare the piss out of me is when he was near death. Not that he was mean all of the time, but you never knew when he was going to snap and I hated it.
Shari, Jared's mother...was also somewhat abused growing up but has a much more stable life than Jim. She infuriates me though with her "I am a victim" crap. She stood by and watched while Jim abused the kids and I believe was a participant also. She treats her kids all differently. Jared was treated worst of all. Here is an email I sent to her recently:
Since I don't know quite where to start, but I want to be honest I will just start listing things about you that bug me. Remember that these are my opinions and my feelings. Try not to get too angry while reading it. It isn't meant to hurt you. I did write them while I was angry though, so it might come acrossed more rough than I want it to.
1. You have always treated Jared differently. I guess I should say more different. In my mind you have always treated Jason best. Then Shanna. Then Sharma. Then Jared. Why? What did Jared to do you even as a young boy for you to treat him so differently than the other kids? Do you want to know MY opinion why you treat him differently? Jared reminds you of Jim. You look at Jared and you think of all of the bad things about Jim. I think the second reason you hate Jared is that from a very young age he stopped needing you. He had his own job, his own money. When he had problems he didn't go running to mama like the other kids did (or still do in some cases). Moms are supposed to be #1 with their kids. You felt neglected by him when you wanted to be his number 1, and you weren't.
2. The thing that you don't buy your own children birthday presents unless they buy YOU one. That is just plain weird. That is a special day, when a precious gift came into your life. I don't know any Mother who doesn't buy their child a gift to commemorate that day and show their love.
3. The way you justify the wrong things that some of your children do, and then shun some for doing the same thing. And how you try to cover up for them. (You have always done this, this isn't just a recent occurrence).
4. The way you buy some of your grandchildren more stuff than others. All of your grandchildren need coats, and school supplies etc.
5. You go around telling people we owe you this and that for that Les Schwab bill when you go out and buy stuff for Jason and he gets behind on paying you back and we don't hear you backstabbing him but you go around talking to people about what we owe you? I paid that Les Schwab bill faithfully! I paid what I though we owed, and then found out that others had been putting things on the account too. Sorry, but I am not paying for other peoples batteries or tires. (We put some tires on her account, this was several years ago)
6. When Tanner died and we asked about burying him with Jim. We were given the answer no. I think you spent some money on a little bundle of flowers for him and I was grateful. But, Then when Brianna was born you allowed Shanna and Kyle to bury her with Jim. This broke my heart. You also bought tons of stuff for Shanna/Brianna. I don't remember what it all was but I know Shanna has alot of stuff to remember Brianna (Commemorative Box or book or both? And other stuff that I know YOU purchased for her.) I would have loved that stuff for my sweet baby boy too. But of course it was Jared's child, and I am not your daughter. It was These experiences that effected me so profoundly that I could not call you mom.
7. The way you act like you don't talk about people behind their backs, but you do. You talk about almost everyone. Everyone does, nobody is innocent here.
8. I've always thought that you didn't like me because I moved in with Marilyn and not you. (Before Jared and I got married I moved to Vale and refused to live with them).
9. I used to think that all of your children's problems were because of Jim. Now I realize that part of their problems are because of you. You weren't a victim, You were the parent too.
10. You try to play the martyr.
There might be more. (I am sure you are thinking "there is more!?!?!") If I think of something else I will send a number 11. I just want to get this all of my chest and start fresh. I would like you to do the same, and I will try not to take it the wrong way.
Lisa
So I got that all out in the open and it made me feel better. BUT then the neighbors (the really sweet ones next door...he used to be our bishop and married Jared and I) heard Shari's side of the story and when Dallin went in for his Baptismal interview, the Bishop called Jared in also and asked him if he thought he was worthy to baptize Dallin after the way he has treated his mother. WTH????? She is the one who left a message on Jared's phone and called him a lying F***er! She is the one who said she washed her hands of all of us and for all of us to go to Hell. All we did was told her the truth about what her precious angel son was doing.
She has known for 5 or 6 months that Jason has been talking to women on the Internet. I told her she should have told Brandy THEN what Jason was doing. She let Jason bring the other woman into her house and then proceeded to tell Jared and I how nice and bubbly she is. WTH???? I said "WHAT??" You let her in your house?" Said "well it isn't her fault" And I said "the hell it isn't. She KNOWS THAT HE IS MARRIED! In my eyes that makes her a wh*re." (Sorry for the language but that is what I said, and I may be a little bit more sensitive to this since I have been through it.)
Oh I am so mad at her. I do not know how she can go around convincing people that Jared and I are the "bad ones" when Jason is the one who left his wife and kids, who is committing adultery, the one who is trying to screw his children out of child support, the one who is the big fat liar! And she again is playing the victim. She took a week off of work for "mental hardship" or some BS. And telling the bishop Jared is being mean to her? I just don't get it. I don't get how people don't have a conscience, and I don't understand why people believe all the lies.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Basketball is over :(
Well this afternoon was Joshua's last Basketball game for 7th grade. He has done soooo well it has amazed me.When he was born he was breech, and when he started to walk he was really pidgeon toed. I took him to 5 different doctors and they would each give me a different diagnosis. It was so frustrating because they never did anything about it.
When we lived in Pocatello I took his to the Orthopedic specialist for ISU. He told us that Joshua's hip joints were square, and they should round out with time and physical activity. I thought it was just another "undiagnosis". When we first moved to Vale the other kids would say something to Joshua about his legs and he was slow. In the year we have been here Joshua has played Baseball, Football and now Basketball and his legs get straighter and stronger as time goes on. I am so relieved.
In the top picture he is the one with the ball in the corner. And the other picture is of him and his buddies. He is 3rd from the left, with a note is his hand that he had been "secretly" passing back and forth between one of the stat girls...LOL It was quite humorous.
He has made me really proud. Alot of the boys have been ineligible for games because of grades or behavior and I never have those problems with him. He is really trying to get a 4.0 this coming semester.The folks that Jared works for are awesome. Even with Jared being a truck driver and all, he only missed ONE of Joshua's games. Being there to support his kids is very important to him.
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